Our prayers have been answered and our Rainbow is here

I haven't posted in a long time but wanted to give the happy update. I had a successful pregnancy and our miracle is here. After 7 years of trying and 4 angels in Heaven. We feel so blessed and are beyond ecstatic.
With this pregnancy I ovulated on cycle day  14 when I normally don't ovulate until around day 21. I think that combined with the prenatal that contains methyl folate, methyl b12, and p5p are why this one was successful. Plenty of women have successful pregnancies that ovulate later than that but I think in my case that is why I would get pregnant and the baby would stop growing at a certain point. That my egg quality was not what it needed to be.

Heartbroken Again

I haven't updated in over a year, but I am experiencing my 4th loss. 

My heart is shattered and yet I know somehow I will get through this. 

I got a faint pink line on 11 DPO, a beautiful pink line on 12 DPO, a faint pink line on 13 DPO, and totally negative today. I have also started bleeding. The sad thing is I have no idea how many times this has happened and would not have even known I was pregnant if I hadn't tested early. I am not even late for my cycle. I only tested since I had some spotting and was feeling very strange. 

It has been a little over 3 years since the last time I got pregnant and I had started feeling strongly that I was never going to get pregnant again and that maybe we just were not meant to have children. 

AF started on Mother's Day

This last cycle ended up being 44 days, so not too bad all things considered. I don't know if I ovulated or not. AF ended up starting on Mother's Day, which in previous years would have been very depressing but did not bother me this year.

That cycle I was taking Vitex tincture hoping to get my cycle back on track. I was using 1 dropperful of the Herb Farm brand which is 607mg of Vitex, I started it on CD 1. 

I also made my own Vitex glycerite that will be ready in 2 weeks. I recently restarted the Myo-Inositol as well and have been taking about 6g per day. I ordered more Maca Root so I will be starting that again on Thursday when it gets here.

Giving it up to God and Officially Not Trying but Not Preventing

2015 has not been a very good year as far as menstrual cycles are concerned for me. My last 2 cycles were really crazy. My cycle starting January 30th was the first annovulary cycle I have had since I have been keeping track.

I ended up having spotting for 6 days before AF started. One the 7th day I did a fertility steam using basil and that finally got it to start. After that cycle I decided I might as well try Soy Isoflavones. I had been thinking about trying it for quite a while but did not want to mess up my cycle. That cycle ended up being crazy too.

That cycle was only 21 days long and the only time I got a positive opk was while I was taking the Soy Isoflavones. I ended up having quite a bit of ovary pain that cycle.

Near the end of that cycle I was really upset and depressed. It didn't help that, that was the cycle that would mark 5 years of trying. I basically cried all day. The next day I felt a sense of peace and decided that it was time to stop trying. I was going to give it up to God. I made a pledge that I was not going to bring up kids or babies or trying with my husband. That I was going to stop thinking about it and worrying about it. I was going to make an effort not to look for signs of ovulation and to not keep track of what cycle day I am on. 

Ever since then I have been feeling really positive and upbeat about everything. I have my joy back. Seeing kids and babies does not send me into a spiral of sadness and depression.

Cycle 42 - 10

I had a positive opk on January 14th. I went back and looked at my last few charts and AF started between 15 to 17 days after my positive opks. So AF is due between today and the 31st. We actually had really good timing this cycle in spite of not actively trying. 

This TWW has been strange, I had pain near my pubic bone near the middle of the tww to the point were I could not fall asleep and I have been having so much cm everyday that I have had to wear panty liners. I ended up testing 2 days ago but it was negative. I checked my cervix today but couldn't really tell anything, no pink yet and it is about medium high.

My husband and I have both been feeling sick the last few days. The strange thing is that we have different symptoms. I have been having digestive upset with nausea, stomach aches, and constipation and he has been feeling congested and having headaches. We both feel run down and tired. I hope we both get better soon. I haven't been having a fever so I don't know if I am technically sick but have been feeling terrible anyway.

Cycle 41 - 9th since last Miscarriage

I haven't posted in quite a while. I was busy with school and we haven't been actively trying so I didn't have much to post about. Today is 14 or 15 DPO so I am just waiting on AF to get here. 


I also did some more research on the genes related to PCOS. I have many of those as well. For some of those N-Acetyl Cysteine is recommended so I started taking that again. I don't remember how much I was taking before but I don't think it was a high enough dose. So hopefully I will see better results this time. 

DCI aka D-Chiro-Inositol

I finally made the switch to DCI from Myo-Inositol. I had been feeling like my PCOS was getting worse and I had given the Myo-Inositol plenty of time to work if it was going to. 

This handy little chart explains why myo-inositol may not have been working for me. Some women have a hard time converting myo-inositol into d-chiro-inositol. Which would explain why I only had a little improvement, even though I was taking 5.5 grams per day when other women have a drastic improvement in symptoms of PCOS on just 2 grams per day.

 

 I started taking 600mg DCI per day and 5000IU of Vitamin D per day on September 15th. At first I was a little disappointed since it didn't seem like it was doing anything for me but I ended up ovulating on CD17. On average I had been ovulating on  CD 20 since my last miscarriage, so that is a 3 day improvement. Hopefully that is not a fluke. 

The brand I am taking is Chiral Balance and I am taking 1 pill per day about an hour before I eat with plenty of water.