AF started on Mother's Day

This last cycle ended up being 44 days, so not too bad all things considered. I don't know if I ovulated or not. AF ended up starting on Mother's Day, which in previous years would have been very depressing but did not bother me this year.

That cycle I was taking Vitex tincture hoping to get my cycle back on track. I was using 1 dropperful of the Herb Farm brand which is 607mg of Vitex, I started it on CD 1. 

I also made my own Vitex glycerite that will be ready in 2 weeks. I recently restarted the Myo-Inositol as well and have been taking about 6g per day. I ordered more Maca Root so I will be starting that again on Thursday when it gets here.

Giving it up to God and Officially Not Trying but Not Preventing

2015 has not been a very good year as far as menstrual cycles are concerned for me. My last 2 cycles were really crazy. My cycle starting January 30th was the first annovulary cycle I have had since I have been keeping track.

I ended up having spotting for 6 days before AF started. One the 7th day I did a fertility steam using basil and that finally got it to start. After that cycle I decided I might as well try Soy Isoflavones. I had been thinking about trying it for quite a while but did not want to mess up my cycle. That cycle ended up being crazy too.

That cycle was only 21 days long and the only time I got a positive opk was while I was taking the Soy Isoflavones. I ended up having quite a bit of ovary pain that cycle.

Near the end of that cycle I was really upset and depressed. It didn't help that, that was the cycle that would mark 5 years of trying. I basically cried all day. The next day I felt a sense of peace and decided that it was time to stop trying. I was going to give it up to God. I made a pledge that I was not going to bring up kids or babies or trying with my husband. That I was going to stop thinking about it and worrying about it. I was going to make an effort not to look for signs of ovulation and to not keep track of what cycle day I am on. 

Ever since then I have been feeling really positive and upbeat about everything. I have my joy back. Seeing kids and babies does not send me into a spiral of sadness and depression.

Cycle 42 - 10

I had a positive opk on January 14th. I went back and looked at my last few charts and AF started between 15 to 17 days after my positive opks. So AF is due between today and the 31st. We actually had really good timing this cycle in spite of not actively trying. 

This TWW has been strange, I had pain near my pubic bone near the middle of the tww to the point were I could not fall asleep and I have been having so much cm everyday that I have had to wear panty liners. I ended up testing 2 days ago but it was negative. I checked my cervix today but couldn't really tell anything, no pink yet and it is about medium high.

My husband and I have both been feeling sick the last few days. The strange thing is that we have different symptoms. I have been having digestive upset with nausea, stomach aches, and constipation and he has been feeling congested and having headaches. We both feel run down and tired. I hope we both get better soon. I haven't been having a fever so I don't know if I am technically sick but have been feeling terrible anyway.